When we learn the full range of the depth that we could fall too we can learn the heights of what we could ascend to..

“I have faith

in who you are becoming

in who you are

you are the wolf

having run through a storm

to stand on a mountain peak

dripping wet.”

- Saul Williams

One of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite poets.. I remember what I saw in my mind when I first read this and how I felt.

Now those words have returned to me and I have something to add to it.

“..having running through a storm to stand on a mountain peak..dripping wet, I have nothing left but to only find myself on my knees in complete prayer.”

Love,
Lei

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What is rebirth but arriving at a state of continuous beginnings and renewal. -Lei

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“Ah! Muslim Sisters! Let us go out this door and purify ourselves in the light of the sun, release our life-energies, give our existence still greater meaning, and our life, splendour! Sisters, let us walk arm-in-arm!”- Lu Jiye and Wang Hailan “For Our Muslim Sisters.”

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Got to love what is felt before the unseen. Got to love the vision in your minds eye, then through patience, work and more faith, it manifests out. What is manifested is a reflection of the love in the beginning. The Love is the same Love at the end. #painter #theartist #thestory

…they so often want to possess the painting, before they understand the story.

-Lei

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‘Cheongsam- The rape of Nanking’

(in Cantonese)

Me: Grandma, did you remember the times when the Japanese were in China?

Grandma: Oh Eileen, it was so tragic, so terrible, so sad, you cant even imagine..

Me: What did you remember?

Grandma: They killed so many people Eileen, dead bodies everywhere..I was just a little girl then, everyone was running, trying to escape, everyone was yelling that the Japanese were coming. I was running back home, everyone was gone when I got to the house. I ran into the hills crying and yelling for my Mom. For hours, I was crying. Then I saw my cousin and she brought me to where my Mom was. Eileen, they would gather men and forced them to dig big holes in the ground. When they were finished, the Japanese shot them in the head from behind. They were forcing them to dig their own graves. So many people died, women were disappearing. The Japanese randomly grabbed any girl and raped them, tortured  and killed them. Your great Aunt, was raped for days, and when she died they tossed her into the river that was filled with bodies….so tragic Eileen, you have no idea…

On December 13, 1937 the Japanese capture the city of Nanjing the former capital of the Republic of China. This six week capture resulted in a mass murder, genocide and war rape. 300,000 Chinese lives were perished during the massive slaughter. 80,000 women were raped, including infants and the elderly.  The war was the result of a decades-long Japanese imperialist policy aiming to dominate China politically and militarily and to secure its vast raw material reserves and other economic resources.

After being taken captive from their own homes, women were ofter killed immediately after gang raped, often through mutilation or by stabbing a bayonet, bamboo or other objects into the vagina. Young girls were cut open to allow Japanese soldiers to rape them.There are also accounts of Japanese troops forcing families to commit acts of incest. Sons were forced to rape their mothers, fathers were forced to rape daughters. Monks who had declared a life of celibacy were also forced to rape women. Pregnant women were often stabbed by bayonet and fetuses were tossed out to the side. Thousands were led away and mass-executed in an excavation known as the “Ten-Thousand-Corpse Ditch”, a trench measuring about 300m long and 5m wide.

Denial of the massacre has been the staple of Japanese nationalism. Various aspects of the Nanjing massacre have been disputed by Japanese nationalists, who have claimed that the event has been either exaggerated or fabricated for propaganda purposes. It is upsetting to me to have discovered that while I was working on this painting, discussions with others on this event have been mainly unknown. I assume the relationship and the alliance between the United States and Japan shortly after World War II has something to do with why the Nanjing Massacre is unknown to the western world and how it was “swept under the rug”.

During war and armed conflict, rape is frequently used as means of psychological warfare in order to humiliate the enemy and undermine their morale. Military leaders actually encourage their soldiers to rape civilians. War rape may occur in a variety of situations, including institutionalised sexual slavery, war rapes associated with specific battles or massacres, and individual or isolated acts of sexual violence. War rape may also include gang rape and rape with objects. Humanitarian law concerns the maltreatment of civilians and “any devastation not justified by military necessity”. War rape has rarely been prosecuted as a war crime. It was not until 2001 when a confirmed verdict by the International Criminal Tribune for the former Yugoslavia that rape and sexual enslavement are crimes against humanity.  Specifically, it was recognised that Muslim women in southeastern Bosnia were subjected to systematic and widespread gang rape, torture and sexual enslavement by Bosnian Serb soldiers, policemen, and members of paramilitary groups after the takeover of the city in April 1992.

The original inspiration for this painting was the ‘Cheongsam’ or ‘Qipao’ which is the traditional Chinese long dress. Inspired by its beauty, cultural value and the evolution of the Chinese feminine expression, I decided to study about the women that wore it during these times. In every inspiration that flows to me, it transforms into a passion of research and study. In my study, I have come to a tragic time in human history that is still relatively unknown to the western world. A tragic story that is rooted in my homeland and still lies painfully in the memory of my family. The ‘Cheongsam’ now represents to me much more than a beautifully made dress. It signifies, the damage and scars Chinese women still bears, the lives lost and the strength of those that still fight to heal, war and the terror against women, but most of all the courage to stand on truth. I hope in my painting, you will learn of a story about a Chinese woman. I hope you will learn about her strength, her love of her culture as she maintains her family, her evolution in her expression as a woman as she have fought and survived through war, her undeniable courage and spirit, in despite of her quiet serenity among the noise that still fights to silence her.

This painting is also a tribute to the author of The Rape of Nanking: The Forgotten Holocaust of World War II, Iris Chang. This book describes the Nanjing Massacre and the atrocities that were committed. She also addresses the issue of the Japanese government not doing enough to redress the atrocities. She was well respected in China for raising awareness of the Nanking Massacre in the Western world. However, she received hate mail mainly from Japanese ultranationalists, threatening notes on her car and she believed her phone was tapped. Suffering from depression, Iris was diagnosed with “brief reactive psychosis” in August 2004. Her battle from depression came to an end in November 2004, when she took her own life.

Any from of acknowledgement, recognition, validation of truth or atonement from the Japanese government is of small importance and incomparable to the tremble in my grandmother voice, the pain that still exists as she recalls her memory as a young girl. There is nothing more close to the truth than that.

 

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SLY ART vs Robot City Video

a lovely project that i previewed earlier this year and has finally finished. I am very proud that i could be part of a project that is ultimately sexy in a beautiful creative way. Again, salute to Vincent Oshin for directing, Jeanie Syfu with hair and styling, and Keziban Barry for her vision behind the camera. And your girl of course was the makeup artist..

“Untitled No. 9″ from SAVRC on Vimeo.

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Tilden Fort Beach- Fashion Reel.

I was blessed with the opportunity to work on this project as the makeup artist. I am truly grateful to work with such amazing team of talents. Im grateful for Vincent Oshin (director/art direction), Jeanie Syfu (hairstylist) and Keziban Barry (photographer) and others that gave their inspiring gifts to create this body of work.

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The Ndebele and Padaung woman

I know its been awhile since I posted new work of my paintings. I have been on a valuable journey that I am so blessed and grateful to be on. A journey that I feel is so important to those that call themselves, artist. Building knowledge of Self is work that requires time, alot of patience and more than anything, faith. Building a relationship with your inner Self and the Creator reveals your own voice that uniquely nourishes your creative expression. Truly, I can only say, that I am so blessed.

As a woman that expresses herself in color, I am intrigued with how women of different cultures express their femininity. Living in a society where the extent of what and why a woman wears what she wears, doesn’t go beyond the pages of celebrity filled magazines and trends dictated by blogs and designers, I am interested in something deeper.. something of cultural value and expression when it comes to femininity.

This is a painting of a woman from the Ndebele tribe of South Africa and a Padaung woman in Northern Thailand. ‘Padaung’ is a term for ‘the group whose woman wears the brass neck coils’. Both of these women wear neck rings for the purpose of cultural identity and pride.

Padaung women in Burma have suffered opression at the hands of success regimes of that country for decades. Forced resettlement and labor, incarceration, denial of political representation and citizenship status rights among other human violations have led thousands of Padaung women to move into Thailand. There are many explanations as to the origin of the tradition of neck rings, but its mainly for the purpose of aesthetic value. The beauty and grace of a long neck is exemplified by the heavy neck ring depicting both wealth and beauty. With their suffering reality, wearing the neck rings reaches beyond the purpose of beauty but a feminine expression that embodies cultural pride and strength in unity.

Ndebele women are well known for their artistic talent, especially with regard to their painted house and colorful beadwork. Multicolor wall paintings are painted by using their fingers. Same patterns and designs can be recognized on their aprons. In early history, patterns are believed to have sacred powers and to have been made in response to demands by ancestors. Also like the Padaung women, owing to the difficult circumstances of their people, the paintings became an expression of both cultural resistance and continuity.

Each unique pattern of each household were created but the woman of the household.. It represented long family traditions and pride. They become a communication system that “speak” to the families conveying self identity, personal prayers, values and emotions. “Through her paintings the artist is saying that she is a good Ndebele wife who keeps proper and well decorated home.” This traditional duty allowed transfer of patterns strategies from mother to daughter.

I truly believe, we as women in American society have alot to learn from these women. I throughly enjoyed this project and expressing with vivid colors that embodies the spirit and strength of their culture. I wanted to portray a different definition of beauty shared by these two women.

There is a common thread running through the Ndebele and Paduang woman that goes beyond the tradition of neck rings, aesthetics, trends, and even culture. It is a common spirit.. a feminine spirit that maintains, grows, evolves on many levels submerged in the harshest conditions and thrives in an environment that doesnt protect them.

We must remember how we are all interconnected. One’s struggle is all of our struggle, their victory is our victory… One spirit. One memory. Love. Now thats revolutionary.

 

LEI

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Fort Tilden Beach -Shoot

Makeup done by yours truly..

Photography: Keziban Barry

Hair styling: Jeanie Syfu

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Yeh yeh, i was running as fast as i can to get back to you. i felt the time quickly slipping under me as i was gathering all the pieces left to build a new beginning. In the midst of all the New York chaos, i nervously made calls back home spoke to Dad and asked how you were doing. But i never made a direct call to you. i worked hard as i could to build my new life in NY and to also create a time and space for me to fly back to you. i kept your picture with me before i left home, for some reason, i may have subconsciously knew that i needed it. Finally, after some time, i booked a flight back Home on my birthday week. A few days before my flight, i got the message that you passed. Im sorry i was late. While i was away, i thought about our walks when i was a little girl and how i wanted to spend time with you to learn more about what was on your mind and heart, and to share with you my dreams. i miss you and love you… as i am still allowing time to guide me to peace of your passing.

yes thats me blowing the candles with my grandfather, my “yeh yeh”

In losing my grandfather recently, I cant help but think how its like losing a deep sense of true education, which is our bridge to our elders that are great examples of tradition and culture while living in this current chaos of American society. In the western world, I feel like although we are surrounded by many different cultures we are made to think or perceive that the great values of these cultures are not “fit” to keep up with modern times. Being born in America, this frame of mind can be easily set in a subconscious level. Yes, we are surrounded by “expressions” of different cultures but it seems we embrace them in our lives as “accessories” or entertainment that feeds into a market-driven culture or capitalist society. We are not aware enought to reach deeper inside of a culture and learn great values that can perhaps serve better for our development in these modern times.

Our perception of cultural difference or even a perception of “superiority” has widen the gap between our roots, and the knowledge of Self, the concept of family and Home. It is amazing how numb we became submerging ourselves in a certain way of thinking set by others. It takes courage to see past your reflection and take off the mask of social roles, and ask oursevles how did I become so disconnected from my roots? I, myself have to admit that I am guilty of this.

Our elders carry tradition in their hearts. They embody values of their culture and are key figures, message carriers that are great examples that we can learn from, the good and the bad. This is the basic unit of true education. Lets close the gap.

Love,
Lei

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